I just discovered a great resource and want to pass it on. It is a webpage of five audio Advent meditations. When the kids are in bed and you can be alone, turn on the Christmas tree lights, turn off the room lights, sit comfortably with your eyes closed, then click here.
My favorite one is "Have I missed Advent?" because it gives words to many of my feelings.
It's not too late to "get" Christmas this year; to be present to the Baby.